Signs She is Made of Ice
She doesn’t bleed. Years ago, he made himself at home in her mind. To adjust, she shifted, only several degrees, but look how far her vector has gone astray. He claimed he could smell it when girls were on their periods, he knows when her period is coming. She, too, is desperate to be a hunter. Instead she received only an invitation to join the Mad Girls Club. She tore up the card, stood in front of the mirror, sliced her image to ribbons. So many acute angles, sharp like stars. One eye remained, a Chinese eye.
She would always be watched by that eye, rolling like a loose marble inside her, down her tongue, perched at the tip. The wet pink muscle, lying in wait. Like stars, like islands, like dreams of a parallel world. China doll world was hardly a vacation. Report all Chinese activity in the daily newspaper. Surveillance at all times. Yet my tongue reports nothing. Somewhere, there may have been movement, but that story is in cold storage. Freeze your eggs, and also those years. Encase all bodies still left in your mind in ice too. Blood slows. Pain cannot register. The most humane way to kill cold-blooded creatures, the newspaper reports.
If he gives chase, it’s hard not to run, I know. Once, they froze her feet in blocks of ice. Mad girl, standstill. Signs of blood, signs of ice, signs of girl, those will all fall away. If you don’t move.